12/31/2013

A promise of everything better comes with the new year which fills everyone with hope. But nothing will change or improve if you resist that.
Spent the evening at Arlington. Good company always feels good. It was a fun way to welcome 2014.

 

12/30/2013

Back to the gym today. Feels so good!!
"Let go of the past, accept the present and have faith in the future".

12/29/2013

Todays 'VERY' good was the board game 'A Game of Life' I played with Rishi and Sandip. I lost both rounds but felt very good in a very long time !!

12/28/2013

Baba's birthday so of course a good day! Cooked for the evening get together which kept me distracted. Susmita and Sangita and their family had come for dinner. So, had some fun time with them. Later IMed with Keshav which always feels good.

12/27/2013

I guess the 'acceptance' lasted only a day :( I am hoping the 'good' today is the little strong I hope I got after enduring a very emotionally tortuous day! I went out with Richa and Pallavi tonight and was hoping to have a lot of fun. It did provide some distraction. I am grateful I have good friends to share my days with.
 

12/26/2013

Acceptance is a good thing. It might be a temporary feeling, but I didn't mind the numbness. I keep reminding myself of the mantra: "Let go of the past, accept the present and have faith in the future".
Made dessert for the weekend get together. Coconut barfi turned out good. Feel good about that.

12/25/2013

Christmas Day!! The good today was Rishi and Sandip opening their presents and liking them. It was good to see them happy.
I went for a walk today after lunch. Felt good. My gift is my good health so far.
The evening was very good. We went to Richa's house. Pallavi and her family was also there. It was a fun time with family - laughing and talking. Reinforces my belief that I enjoy and crave good companionship.
 

12/24/2013

I am a year older today. I still long for love and affection and attention and all the other stuff but I am so happy that I am working towards finding happiness with whatever I have. I make a commitment to strive to live in the present and appreciate the gifts I got in life. The next year of my life I will document at least 1 gift I have in my life each day. I know I am blessed, I just have to accept it and see it clearly.

I loved my birthday. Sandip and Rishi brought cake which I cut at mid night. Keshav called a few minutes early so that he could be the first one to wish me. Suman had called earlier to wish too. In the morning, I talked to my parents in Skype. It was so good to see Ma and Didibhai. We spent so long talking today. It really was one of the best birthdays ever. In the evening we went t Mission and sang Christmas Carols. It was a lot of fun. I talked and saw Baba on Skype too later tonight. Love new technology. Rishi's love and his hugs are all I need to make my day bright. I am truly blessed!!

The gift I treasured today was the love of family. And the companionship of good people in Mission. What's not to love about my life today?

12/23/2013

I spent sometime at the mall with Rishi today. It was so nice. At times I felt like I was interacting with a friend. He is such a sweet kid. Why can't I be happy with just what I have? I shouldn't need anything more to be happy.

 

12/22/2013

The good today was catching up with friends at Maya's annaprashan. Iradi was such a gracious host. I loved talking to Sunanda, Sujata and Sushmita. I notice that I am really happy when I have conversations and fun with friends. I guess I enjoy companionship.

12/21/2013

Went to watch Dhoom 3 in Totem Lake Cinema with Richa today. Really enjoyed the time spent with her.

 

12/20/2013

Snow day today. Rishi played in the snow. It was good to see him happy like that. Sandip also went out in the snow. It was good to see him enjoying himself. Rishi wore a suit to school today. He looked so handsome. Proud of my little boy!!
 

12/19/2013

It was a very relaxing day since I stayed at home today. Had good conversations with Rishi which always makes me happy. Richa called today evening and we decided to go to the movies on Saturday which was good. I came across a nice quote tonight. It will be good to remember it always:
"Remember everyone you meet, has some fear, loves someone and lost someone and something in their lives".

12/18/2013

It was a good day today. Spent a lot of time with friends. It was nice chatting to Keshav today and later talking to him and his family in the evening. I also had lunch with Ashima, Richa, Sharmila and Shalaka today. It was a lot of fun!
I started knitting after a very long time. Rishi was eager about that too. I am right now knitting a scarf for Rishi. It made me happy to pick up the knitting needles again. Reminded me of old times.
 

12/17/2013

Read many confidence boosting self help articles. These really helps me. I also spent some good time with Rishi today evening. Also was so happy to be able to chat with Keshav after a couple of days.

12/16/2013

Made some progress in my studies which always makes me feel good. Plus enjoyed a very nice massage.

12/15/2013

Went to RamKrishna Mission and Devra gossiped about Mitadi and Satyenda. I always liked gossips :-)
Me, Sandip and Rishi went to watch 'Ram Leela' today. It was fun. Also, invited Sangita and family for dinner on 12/28 and felt good that they were available to come over that evening. A nice day. Today I consciously saw how my mood uplifted with positive thinking. I feel whatever I think - so will think positive always!

 

12/14/2013

Shopping at Thrift Stores makes me happy. Shopping at Thrift stores at 50% discount makes me very happy. It was a happy day for me. Sandip, Rishi and me went out for dinner and later we went to view the Christmas decorations at Brier. It is nice to see Sandip making so much effort to bring happiness to our lives. I just hope the happiness comes back for me. It was a lovely evening and I made an honest effort to enjoy it too. And I did have a good time.

12/13/2013

I was happiest today when I read the news that Hrithik Roshan and Sussanne Roshan's marriage broke up. I have been trying to think since then why this news made me so happy? Was it the fact that I am not alone in my unhappiness and that there are problems in seemingly very happy and good looking lives too?
It was great talking to Keshav. Skype makes it so easy!

12/12/2013

Had woken up with a happy news today. Shubho called to say he had a baby boy today. The baby was born on his birthday. He was so happy and so was I. May God bless them always.A very relaxed day at work. Had a nice conversation with Rishi again about his school - friends and general school work. Made soup for dinner as Sandip wanted to have soup. Felt good to do this much for him. Beginning to enjoy the book 'The Lost Bank'. It was so good to get the email from Keshav. He reached Bangalore and emailed me soon after. Many 'goods' today.

12/11/2013

Todays good was the fact that we were given 3 lollypops and cider as Holiday cheer at work. I also felt good that I made an effort to listen and be interested in Rishi's activities at school. It felt so nice when he was enthusiastically telling us all about his school. Such a sweet boy! I hope our relationship never changes.

 

12/10/2013

A relaxed day spent at home. Took the day off from work. It was good to talk to Keshav. The Christmas trees are out and Rishi helped decorate it. Spent some time with online friends too - FFL group in Facebook is turning out to be fun.

12/9/2013

Happy that I had an uncomfortable conversation with Kevin and handled it well. I was putting it off for some time now and I am glad I got it over with. Had a nice evening relaxing and spending time with Rishi. I am really enjoying the slow pace of the evenings these days.

12/8/2013

A nice relaxed Sunday spent mostly at home with family. Had a 'conversation' again with Sandip. I am glad he realizes and willing to discuss what might be going wrong and willing to make changes. Hope everything works out well. It felt good to acknowledge and say 'good job' to Rishi after he wrapped up his Xbox game in time without me having to remind him. I want to acknowledge the good in him more often.
Read a wonderful quote tonight. It will be good to remember these always.
 How to be stress free:
1.Let go of the belief that I am responsible for everything and everyone.
2.Perfectionism is not worth it.
3. Ask and accept help
4.Focus on the important. The rest can take care of itself.

12/7/2013

I liked dolling up to go to the Christmas party organized by Sandip's office. The party itself was not very exciting, but loved going out with Sandip all dressed up. We had a nice adult conversation in the car ride from and to the party too.

12/6/2013

Great day. It was nice to spend some time with Janice on her bday but towards the end of lunch I was looking forward to getting back home. Loved the animated discussions and laughter at the dinner at Sunanda's house.

12/5/2013

Got a lot of work done today at office. Sense of relief and accomplishment. The price of the house we have been eyeing dropped again - so happy :)
Was also LOL ing while chatting with Som.
 

12/4/2013

Went to Costco with Sandip today to order eye glasses. Got a wonderful pair and what's not to be happy about that? It felt nice wandering through the store too.

12/3/2013

I woke up happy today. Rishi didn't get the fever all night last night. YAY! :)
 

12/2/2013

Was happy to get back to gym today. Also had a pleasant day at work. A relaxed evening at home with Rishi and Sandip completed my happy day.

12/1/2013

'Happiness' today was definitely shared family closeness. I was happy that Bhaswati called from the airport to convey that she was very sorry for the loss of Kutu and also that she understood that I wasn't able to see them off.
Very glad that Keshav reached Hyderabad safely and it was very nice of him to immediately get in touch with us to let us know. I was happy to be able to talk to him and hear his voice.